Heartbreak

I've never known heartbreak like I've experienced it today.

Today it was confirmed that I miscarried my first pregnancy.

My heart aches. My soul hurts for my unborn child, for myself, for my Beto. My very core is broken.

I know that things like this happen. I know its without reason. But I can't help but be angry I can't help but be hurt. I feel defeated. My body didn't do what it was supposed to do. Take care of the baby. Nourish it and help it to grow.
My positive felt to good to be true. Will I never be a mommy? Why did this happen? I want this so bad....and yet here I am.

Not pregnant.